Beekissed
Herd Master
I don't know that this journal will inspire anyone at all, but Redtailgal wanted me to put it down in words, so here it goes.
I have been gaining weight steadily since getting married and then having children...back in 1986. I'm a stress eater and my life has been one stressor after another since getting married, divorced, raising three boys as a single, working parent and then entering one of the most stressful careers~nursing. Nurses, cops, air traffic controllers have been voted as having the most stressful jobs due to having enormous responsibilities and absolutely no control over how things are done.
I'm now 45, my boys are grown and out of the home, I just quit my job as a hospice nurse~I loved it but I was dying the death of a million paper cuts. Now I am starting to write a book and trying to change my eating and activity levels.
I have no structured diet plan(I've never actually been on a diet before...can you believe that?), nor would I stick with one. I've been on exercise programs in the past but have no interest in developing a plan of any kind. I'm just not that kind of person...structured days do not appeal to me and I would never stay with it. I like a normal flow of life to happen and so wish to just introduce different eating habits and activities as a normal part of my day to day living.
I've always been physically active and muscular, despite my weight, and I carry it well. My top weight was 289 and that was recorded back in October. I started to slide towards different eating styles back then and have lost weight since then down to 270. My goal weight is, ultimately, 140 but I just want to get to the next 10 lb mark as my short term goal. Every time I go down another 10 lbs I will feel I'm accomplishing something.
In the past 3 years I've went completely off the reservation with my eating habits and had been eating a lot of what I consider junk foods. My job had no set hours, I was traveling all over 2 counties, never had set break times or meal times and often would come back to the office and home ravenous, tired, completely emotionally drained and needing comfort. Bad combination. :/
Meanwhile, God has been working in my life and, I feel, preparing me for something other than my current life. I've been trying to live more in God's will for me in the past 5 years, so I am ready for anything and everything that He would have me do. I really want to do a ministry or missionary work of some kind and I feel led to write this book that has been in my mind for a long time. I feel He is also helping curb my appetite, has placed me where I have less stress and more time to concentrate on Him and my book, and where I have time to get some regular activity.
My plan? Try to get up earlier, read my Bible and talk to God, pray for guidance and inspiration, work on the book, walk and train my old dog, eat healthier, smaller, more frequent meals, do whatever chores are waiting, read a good book, go to bed earlier, get good rest. Repeat every day that I am able.
I'll try to journal my progress!
I have been gaining weight steadily since getting married and then having children...back in 1986. I'm a stress eater and my life has been one stressor after another since getting married, divorced, raising three boys as a single, working parent and then entering one of the most stressful careers~nursing. Nurses, cops, air traffic controllers have been voted as having the most stressful jobs due to having enormous responsibilities and absolutely no control over how things are done.
I'm now 45, my boys are grown and out of the home, I just quit my job as a hospice nurse~I loved it but I was dying the death of a million paper cuts. Now I am starting to write a book and trying to change my eating and activity levels.
I have no structured diet plan(I've never actually been on a diet before...can you believe that?), nor would I stick with one. I've been on exercise programs in the past but have no interest in developing a plan of any kind. I'm just not that kind of person...structured days do not appeal to me and I would never stay with it. I like a normal flow of life to happen and so wish to just introduce different eating habits and activities as a normal part of my day to day living.
I've always been physically active and muscular, despite my weight, and I carry it well. My top weight was 289 and that was recorded back in October. I started to slide towards different eating styles back then and have lost weight since then down to 270. My goal weight is, ultimately, 140 but I just want to get to the next 10 lb mark as my short term goal. Every time I go down another 10 lbs I will feel I'm accomplishing something.
In the past 3 years I've went completely off the reservation with my eating habits and had been eating a lot of what I consider junk foods. My job had no set hours, I was traveling all over 2 counties, never had set break times or meal times and often would come back to the office and home ravenous, tired, completely emotionally drained and needing comfort. Bad combination. :/
Meanwhile, God has been working in my life and, I feel, preparing me for something other than my current life. I've been trying to live more in God's will for me in the past 5 years, so I am ready for anything and everything that He would have me do. I really want to do a ministry or missionary work of some kind and I feel led to write this book that has been in my mind for a long time. I feel He is also helping curb my appetite, has placed me where I have less stress and more time to concentrate on Him and my book, and where I have time to get some regular activity.
My plan? Try to get up earlier, read my Bible and talk to God, pray for guidance and inspiration, work on the book, walk and train my old dog, eat healthier, smaller, more frequent meals, do whatever chores are waiting, read a good book, go to bed earlier, get good rest. Repeat every day that I am able.
I'll try to journal my progress!