Ragdollcatlady's Just a Little Patch of Weeds Farm journal

[ragdollcatlady]

Thanks! I LOVE having my kids home!!!

Pups name is Rico Stinko Suave. His personality is starting to show and he is soooo cute! He is starting to make little noises, mostly little grumbles. SO silly! I think my immunity to dogs is at an all time low right now .... gotta get on that $#!T before it gets out of control!!!

Sad note... it was time to say goodbye to one of my old Rags, Tantara. She was 16, almost 17, so we had a nice long run. Still it hurts. I am grateful that I have a compassionate coworker group. Nearly everyone offered hugs and condolences.... of course I was totally falling apart for a minute... maybe 2. But I managed to pull myself together and get back to work pretty quick. I will probably really lose it when Bianca goes too... but for the minute I think I am OK.

 

[Bruce]

 

[Hens and Roos]

 

[Latestarter]

Sorry you lost another close and dear friend. It never gets easier.

 

[ragdollcatlady]

Thank you.

The first night she was gone, I stayed up later, didn't want to go to sleep of course, because that is when I will miss her the most. I didn't sleep well, she normally slept on either my hip or shoulder and her presence was very much missed. But then, when my morning alarm went off and I hit the snooze, Bianca came over. She usually brushes my face with her whiskers, and meows REALLY loudly about a centimeter from my face, just to say "good morning, I missed you, waited all night for you to wake up, now pet me!!!" So she did that, but then after a quick pet, she settled on my shoulder in Tantaras spot until I actually got up. She has taken up the new spot every night. And SkyBorg has taken to head butting me and insisting on a bunch of snuggles at bedtime.... It feels great to be loved through the tough times.

Good News Flash!!!! Ghost Ryder had twin does tonight!!! .......and Alaska already named the heavily dappled one that I want to keep, Mocha!

 

[ragdollcatlady]

 

[Southern by choice]

I am so sorry you lost your longtime friend and companion. I wish I had the words to express what is in my mind and heart... sometimes there just is no way to put it in words.

Congratulations on your kids! Can't wait for pics!

 

[Southern by choice]

oooooooooooooo we were posting at the same time!
Love that dark one!

 

[babsbag]

Baby goats are cute...almost as good as cats. I am sorry about you losing Tantara, it is so hard to say goodbye to our old friends. My all time favorite cat in the entire world was a stray that I rescued...he looked like a Snowshoe. I have said goodbye to way too many animals but he had to be the hardest. I have a pastel portrait of him that my mom did and it is over my bed and for days I would cry whenever I saw the picture. He was my best friend and spent many a night as my soulmate.

 

[ragdollcatlady]

I clocked in this year at 25 lbs lighter than last January. I am proud of myself for maintaining that despite the difficult times I had. Wanted to do better, but it is progress. As of right now, I am duking it out with that other 5 lbs that isn't allowed to talk to me (total would've been 30, but well, you know). Almost there, then i can start on my next goal.

I thought I would share my current method. I struggle with deprivation. I stress when I "can't have" the foods I like or want. No reason, as I could always have it tomorrow, but I just do. So rather than "do" a diet by the day, sometimes I can't even do a whole day, I measure success by the meal. If I eat an appropriate meal, generally I can eat more since it is diet food, then I count that meal as a success. If I eat a real food, but eat a normal human portion, then I count that meal. I usually eat 2 meals a day, lunch and dinner but have lots of coffee with ton of goats milk for breakfast (I generally can't eat in the mornings or it won't stay down.) I try and do a short workout, just a little cause I won't even start if I don't feel up to finishing it. And if I feel the need to take any supplements I count those. I actually went out and bought gold stars.... the kind from when my kids were little and we had chore charts. Every meal counts as a star, every set of exercise counts as one, and regardless of which or how many, supplements count as one. Here is my progress so far.

I find that this way, I don't feel so bad if I mess up, it is only one meal. I never have the feeling that since I already messed up, I am done for the day, the next meal is another chance to make a better choice, and I can always earn a star by doing a short workout or at least taking some vitamins or healthy other stuff. Even when I don't see progress living this way, I don't lose as much progress if I mess up several days in a row, even if it is pretty bad. I usually just end up maintaining.