Ugh. Warning:brief venting.
I'd like to bring in a mini lamancha buck for use on ff or older does. Might even go MDGA all the way if ADGA annoys me enough and they are close. Found a nice herd not too far away that looks like it's made an effort to bring in and keep nice stock out of their own breedings. I asked about testing. They test and are negative for CAE and Johnes and are a mostly closed herd. I missed that they didn't include CL and ask for a reservation on a yet to be bred doe. A month passes. Doe is now bred. I think about our exchange and note my mistake after helping an acquaintance of mine send off samples from a possible positive doe. I message them last night. They do not test for CL "as per their vet" because the CL test is innacurate and assure me they have strict bio-security measures and don't have an abscess problem. I become uncomfortable. I'm still trying to keep CL out of our raw milk dairy goat herd in a place where CL is rampant and most vets just have the attitude that goats=CL. Any potential bucklings would have to be quarantined anyway from their herd because of age vs my coming goat kids but not that far due to smaller rural property and CL can be spread via fly bites and this area is thick with little filth flies and they bite...The blood serum test isn't accurate enough to determine the positive/negative status of individual animals but is useful to tell you if you have a herd wide problem so...
Now I'm beating my head against the wall because they bred a doe for a reservation I put down and I'm stressing about not wanting to deal with this area's CL issues and attitude if they do have it. We've been testing for CL for years now and the only suspect came from a young doe that was in her first strong standing heat when blood was drawn and retested normally in a month out of heat. I have no issues with the test and feel I understand its limitations. (and I have tested abscesses as well as blood)
Sat awake last night recalling all the other goats I've brought in from local sources in the last two years.
1 doe (and her daughter) that became our herd punching bag and tested positive for CL and both does were sent back regardless of if it was from stress or real
2 CAE positive does
Everything else has been non-local and tested fine.
I'm about to back out on a reservation and ruin someone's day because I don't want to potentially deal with both CAE and CL prevention. CL in raw milk is no joke.
Main points:
1) I'm an idiot.
2) Local attitudes frustrate me.
3)Don't dream. And most of all
4)DON'T BRING IN LOCAL GOATS. Don't even think about it.
BACK To MY HIDING HOLE
I don't even think my husband would "let" me bring in goats from non-testing herd like that if I asked him ("let" as in, be very impressed with me or happy about funding the venture and he's my better, smarter half, and it's smart to keep that half of me happy with me).
I guess I should tell myself I need to AI for that mini pipe dream OR call upon one of my dwarf friends that I feel like if I wound up with a positive from them they'd freak out and get testing and cry too.
My husband wants me to (if I have to) be a jerk and protect my family and herd. I guess here we go.
This would be so much easier if I didn't care and was coming at this from a terminal animal/meat producing perspective and had their attitude and not a raw milk and beloved pets perspective.
If the goats are eating the grass hay it is palatable. They do need the roughage for their rumens to work properly. 
