So..... my shoulder has been hurting...
I was waiting for it to get better... didn't... it actually felt like it was getting worse....
So, during my RL Saturday morning coffee group, I asked all the old folks there what they thought...
They all voted for me to get seen by a doc.
So.... Monday I called, got to see a doc same day... surprisingly... and yeah, a full doc. not a PA or what have ya.
So.... doc said "hum" and then said I shouldn't be favoring it... because that would cause me to have a "frozen shoulder". I looked at her and said, nope, there are some ways that I will NOT move that arm. Nope.
So, she ordered an x-ray.
I got x-rayed. That was bad, but not horrid. X-ray guy didn't ask me to move it in a way I refuse to move it.... so... whatever.
X-rays came back, doc said "wow, it almost looks like your shoulder is dislocated, because of the way the bone is sitting" I said "no, it isn't dislocated, but maybe torn" so.... she went... got a doc who specializes in sich things to look at it... came back, with "yep, torn, you need an MRI, and then surgery"
So....


It hurts worse now... I don't think because I had to hold it funny for the x-ray.... but because now I KNOW it is NOT getting better, and it will take gobs all of time before it gets fixed.
MRI, earliest available is the 30th.
And in hindsight... I think I have been making it worse... like it started with a little tear... and I made it tear worse because I kept doing stuff I shouldn't have done with a torn shoulder....
And now I am just tired... tired of being in pain all the blasted time... and #$%#@&!!! angry that I made it worse... and have to wait weeks... maybe months, and spend gobs of money....
But... supposedly this kind of surgery is usually easy and successful.
So... good...