Some churches keep a food pantry, call around and maybe you can take it from the FB straight to a church.
As for forgetting, it happens. Last week was a whirlwind for me. I take my SIL to PT 3 times a week at 10 AM. It's a 100 mile round trip. I leave at 9, get back at 12 to 1 or 2 depending on what else she needs. My evening chores take 2 hours, sometimes 3 because I try to spend time with the animals. I have the dog in heat, Ozel, here to breed to Buford, but she waffles in and out of heat, driving me nuts. They get two 30 minute "dates" daily, I have high hopes. Water, feed, hay, petting dogs and sheep and now a horse that has anxiety over being taken from his pampered old life and thrust into a new life that is not pampered, I don't even have a shelter for him, but I'm tearing down an old shed and it will provide the materials for a nice 3 sided shelter for him. He does have a 2 acre pasture and used to live in a stall. He is calming down and adjusting. I haven't ridden him, prefer to earn his trust first because all things have changed in his life and I don't want to throw everything at him at once. Yesterday he was calm at feeding time, he has been pushy and tossing his feed pan in a frustrated fit. He and I are working on it. So last week I drove 350 miles to Corpus Christi, taking a dog in heat, to see my middle Granddaughter in a school program. Picked up the horse next morning and drove S L O W L Y back home, 7 hours, taking back roads to avoid the high speed Gladiator interstates through Houston. I was a zombie for several days, still had all my chores and duties. Slightly overwhelmed. A neighbor shot a deer and I went over there, he mentioned it was Sunday and I looked at my phone to confirm it. Sure enough it was Sunday. The adult class before the sermon had already started. Oops. I barely made it to church. I was so wiped out that I didn't know what day it was. This is not an uncommon occurrence. I am often so tired and dumb that I don't know if I'm coming or going. Toss in doctor appointments (mine) and my SIL appointments, any other kind of appointments or places to be on certain days at certain times and I'm wandering around like a lost child in the wilderness. Phone calls, orders, anything and everything. How in the devil do I hold it all together?
PAPER LISTS.
Write down everything. Draw a line through it. Done. I still wander around in a fog, I go in a room, forgetting why I went in there. I sit down and fall asleep, not intending to. And clutter? My sister is a clean freak, everything must be in order. Our mother dumped chores on her from laundry to starting supper. That same mother expected nothing from me. I did not inherit, nor acquire by osmosis the cleaning gene. No other worldly alien from outer space wafted down and inserted a chip in my brain that said dust is the enemy, clutter is a disease that kills it's victims. What I did get was go outside and do everything my Daddy was doing. MUCH more FUN. I'm also ADHD, my brain is wired differently, my normal is not everybody else's normal. Eh. I don't care.
You are not alone. You are doing a fantastic job of everything you do. You are a dear, sweet, kind lady with a big heart. You have a generous heart and a pure soul that gives away love for others. It hurts you to see others suffer. It hurts you to see food thrown away, at the Food Bank. If you can find a way to relocate it where it does some good, then do so. If taking it home to try to prevent waste stresses you out, then choose which stress is the least damaging to you, seeing it thrown away or taking it home to pile up and make you feel bad. You are taking care of a sick husband, his caregiver. That is a huge responsibility. It has it's rewards but it also sucks the life out of you and leaves you exhausted. It's ok to admit that and not feel guilty.
At some of my lowest moments you have sent me hugs. Big enveloping hugs with soft pats on the back, there, there, there. I'm sending you a big enveloping hug with soft pats on the back, there, there, there. It will all be ok, you are ok. You have a lot to deal with, but you are going to do your best. You are a Champion, you are God's angel on earth, spreading love and kindness, just save a little of that for yourself.
tomorrow.
to you both!!
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