RoahT, I'm praying for you and I will put you in my prayer request journal I keep!
I feel like I should say these couple of things...
I've been a bee fighting a wasp (wasp as in satan)... After losing papa I started into some deep depression till may (papa passed in March) but before God would take away this depression I needed to throw myself on Him and trust Him with my whole heart!
I was doing fine until July when my aunt died.... I screamed "NO" for a long time.... Neighbors heard me.... I was angered by this.... I was not about to trust God when He let this happen!
What happened, I was all over the place with my emotions! And following the next 10-days my cousin came to live with us, My friend Kara died, and uncle passed.... I had up my mind to end life.... I was sad, scared who would skip a beat next, I still didn't want to trust God....
I guess I didn't get the lesson very well so I needed to switch how I was doing things...
I've become to realize Jesus is a friend, not someone to just trying to take away my problems but someone to come alongside and just be here for me!
I still am in a battle but I am on the winning side with my Lord Jesus Christ.... And no one is changing my mind!
@Flock Master64 How much of a basket case I was!
Sometimes there are reasons why God won't Take away our problems... So maybe He still has something for you to learn!
Kuddos, to you for staying faithful and pressing forward... I am just starting to learn that!